Day 113, May 7
Well, things are going ok for Allyson. She’s had much chemo since this past Friday. She’s also been taking the steroid that makes her have tremendous mood swings. - The chemo makes her tired and the meds do make her moody. When we go to the doc’s office, she takes the shot like a champ though. They are surprised she doesn’t cry. I’m not…she’s awesome!
It is difficult to see some of the side-effects of all this come back though. She had a great couple of weeks, mostly because she was pretty much medication free. She was the good ‘ole Ally. Now, she’s getting tired again, and the meds are hard for her to take and do crazy things to her body. One side-effect of one of the chemo meds she’s getting dulls muscle reflexes and strength. She’s feeling the urge to potty, but sometimes just barely makes it. I hate to see this happen again. She gets upset when she doesn’t make it…
I had a panic moment the other day when I was watching her. I thought for a brief moment, “What if all this doesn’t work? What are we going to do?” I felt the panic…it is amazing how easy it is to let yourself go there if you allow it to happen…I had to stop thinking that way…there is no reason for me to think it won’t work. She’s been responding well so far.